I must not be good enough.
Let’s be honest, I’m right. None of us are good enough and that is why we need Jesus. He is what makes us good enough in the sight of God.
I have been faced with situations recently where I think to myself, I am good enough to do that or I can do that just as well as they can. In some cases I may have people that agree with me, however I am “watching from the sidelines” and I think to myself, maybe I’m not good enough after all. I know my strengths and weaknesses and all of a sudden my list of weaknesses grows. But God knows my strengths and weaknesses too. Not only that, God knows strengths I may not even know about because in His divine plan He hasn’t chosen to show them yet. He also knows the weaknesses I have that may be tucked away in the back corners of my mind. It may seem counter intuitive but when I feel like I am not good enough, I like to remind myself that I definitely am not; because I don’t want to run the risk of thinking that I’m good enough for God. I am a sinner, worthy of His grace only by the sacrifice of Jesus. Only he was good enough and he chose to take on my shortcomings that I might have eternal life with the Father of all things.
I also hold strong to the fact that God has a plan for me and it very rarely lines up with what I think it should be. After all if it did I would be a professional musician somewhere living comfortably, but I don’t think I would have the same relationship with God. Philipians 1:6 says “being confident in this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” So when I think I am not good enough, maybe its just that I’m not good enough for that path because God has another that He knows I will be the best for. After all, who knows my strengths and weaknesses better than God?
I don’t know what the future holds but I do know that He has a chosen path for me and I simply need to get out of the way and let Him lead. I pray that we can all do the same.